waited around for directv tech all day...supposed to be here between 10-12....called installation dept. at 11am, making sure tech was still coming out since it was raining.. i was assured the tech would be here shortly. i called again at 12:10, when noone had showed and was transfered to the local office in charge of installation. was told i'd get a call back from dispatch in 10 mins. got the call a half hour later...was told tech would arrive in 45 minutes. 2 hours pass.. it's now 3pm, i call the local office and notes stay tech met me..and "informed the customer install must be rescheduled due to rain." i think i deserve one month's free service or something...i waited around all freaking day for this guy. if i didn't want directv so badly, i'd cancel the whole thing. rescheduled for th. morning first appointment. URGH!

on a positive note... it is raining and it's beautiful!

i think there's a house under here somewhere... i survived the weekend...yay!! my girlfriend is amazing... she moved around all the furniture in the house, so the movers would have some place to put all the boxes and furniture, while i dealt with them at my old place. now i get to unpack.. oh joy! i can't wait til it's done so i can start enjoying the fact that i just moved in with the love of my life.

there is nothing like standing on stage, singing beautiful complicated music surrounded by superbly talented women. that's vox femina. working with this phenomenal group of women is one of the most satisfying musical experiences i've ever had, not to mention all the additional benefits such as the great friendships i'm making, or the partner i only dreamed of meeting.

it was a great weekend of singing... i really didn't think we'd pull it off, since the rehearsal process was less than joyous this time around. now onto our last guest conductor, Nancy Sulahian...looking forward to this one...hoping she's as fabulous as i've heard.

right about now i'm wondering.. what the hell was i thinking... i can survive.. i will not collapse!

my vox femina concert is this weekend, sat and sunday and i haven't even memorized all my music yet. the movers are coming 9am tmw morning to the pasadena house... hoping they only take 4 hours, so i'm not charged a fortune. tonight, t and i spend the evening clearing out space in her (almost our) place for all my crap arriving tmw. after recovering from moving and concert 1, friends are coming over sunday morning to pick up our furniture doubles (you know all the things you now have 2 of... who really needs 2 microwaves anyway??). then shower, change and back off to pasadena for concert 2. last, but not least, vox after party sunday night. then, t's dad is visiting for a few days/fixing plumbing/rewiring electricity amidst the boxes. oh, and we're having directv installed tuesday. i'm sure i missed something.

wish me luck and come see the concert if you get a chance!

it feels like i just moved in... oh wait i did...in august...ugh!!! packing up my apartment was actually a lot easier than i imagined, thanks to tee and yoshi...they're amazing! and yoshi helped out looking like this ... i'm still trying to figure out how to make it up to her.

trying to figure out what to do with all our stuff, who to give it to, how to coordinate pickups and drop offs since we're getting rid of almost half of our furniture is a pain in the ass. i know the end result will be great, joyous even..but in the meantime, it's less than fun and exciting.

i've been on metformin for about 1 1/2 months and i've gained 10 lbs, which is the opposite of its intended effect. it's a medication i "have to" take because I have PCOS. I tried to go on this crap once before and just couldn't stomach it. it made me horribly sick... in fact, it seems i had all the side effects, even the more obscure. i was completely nauseated, exhausted no matter how much sleep i got, anemic, freezing (couldn't seem to regulate my body temperature) and severly depressed. i couldn't even work out because it increased my nausea so drastically i threw up (happened every time i tried.) i called my doctor and she took me off the meds. i've been off for a week and i feel like me ol' self again, but now i get to try metformin extended release to see if the side effects are reduced. this has definitely convinced me i need to do a lot more research on PCOS, so i understand exactly what the hell is going on and figure out treatment options for myself, rather than relying solely on the doc's prognosis.

hormones are powerful things... i've spent 29 years of my life with screwed up hormones and they've definitely had a major effect on shaping my identity, my personality and wreaking havoc with my self-esteem... try dieting and exercising your whole life (from the age of 4) and gaining weight regardless of what you do, and that's not even the worst of the symptoms.

the last 2 years have been an odd roller coaster of positive and negative consequences causing many mixed feelings about the process and potential end result... i haven't really felt like "myself" for awhile...which is not necessarily a bad thing, but disconcerting, nonetheless. i made the decision that i would be open to going along for the ride and seeing where all this hormone regulating took me, so here i am almost half way and i'm not convinced... guess i'll give it the full 5 years.