metformin is hell

i've been on metformin for about 1 1/2 months and i've gained 10 lbs, which is the opposite of its intended effect. it's a medication i "have to" take because I have PCOS. I tried to go on this crap once before and just couldn't stomach it. it made me horribly sick... in fact, it seems i had all the side effects, even the more obscure. i was completely nauseated, exhausted no matter how much sleep i got, anemic, freezing (couldn't seem to regulate my body temperature) and severly depressed. i couldn't even work out because it increased my nausea so drastically i threw up (happened every time i tried.) i called my doctor and she took me off the meds. i've been off for a week and i feel like me ol' self again, but now i get to try metformin extended release to see if the side effects are reduced. this has definitely convinced me i need to do a lot more research on PCOS, so i understand exactly what the hell is going on and figure out treatment options for myself, rather than relying solely on the doc's prognosis.

hormones are powerful things... i've spent 29 years of my life with screwed up hormones and they've definitely had a major effect on shaping my identity, my personality and wreaking havoc with my self-esteem... try dieting and exercising your whole life (from the age of 4) and gaining weight regardless of what you do, and that's not even the worst of the symptoms.

the last 2 years have been an odd roller coaster of positive and negative consequences causing many mixed feelings about the process and potential end result... i haven't really felt like "myself" for awhile...which is not necessarily a bad thing, but disconcerting, nonetheless. i made the decision that i would be open to going along for the ride and seeing where all this hormone regulating took me, so here i am almost half way and i'm not convinced... guess i'll give it the full 5 years.