Yes, still in love..6 months and the deliriously happy bug that sunk its teeth firmly in my ass is not releasing its grip anytime soon.. wanted to pick someplace special: romantic/beautiful for the date...since t's the la native, figured anything i found, she would've already visited...but nope.... I scored. highly recommend the inn of the seventh ray. it's a faerie-land oasis..complete with twinkly lights, trees, candlelit winding paths, and a creek.

but my company constantly asks me to do these random little graphics projects here and there. It's all fine and good when they give me time while i'm on the schedule.. sometimes it's even fun...but this asking me to do insane printing projects and shopping expeditions after work (meaning w/o pay) is uncool.

sitting in kinkos last night at 9pm,i started losing it....something that should've taken 10 minutes took me 1 1/2 hours. not only did it waste my time, it cost me $80... for copies. yeah this is an office run by interpreters most of whom have never worked in an office before and have no idea how to function as corporate pod people... which is nice in some ways...yet highly annoying in others. and, i will make them pay the $.40/minute i was charged to use the kinkos computer so that i could make the color prints. think it's time i make a strong suggestion they invest in a color printer. it's not like they don't have the money. rant over; project done....i supppose i should start on the newsletter that was due july 15. oops.

how many freaking people are trying to call tmobile at 11pm?? come on... you're going to put me on hold for 45 minutes after misdirecting me twice? I asked for the sidekick dept., not the blackberry dept, cust. svc. idiot. and then you, mr. blackberry.. if i tell you i need the sidekick dept, don't freakin' send me back to general cust. svc. Why must i constantly deal with incompetence?? URGH!

i suppose i shouldn't expect much from myself right now but i can't seem to do much other than stare into space...tried working on my house, but can't seem to do much other than lie about.. it is the cutest place ever, but since i went from a place with so much built-in storage to this huge empty loft, i have to buy a bunch of furniture to put all my "stuff" and it's daunting ... will post pics as soon s it's furnished and i unpack. I had this grand plan that i would get the whole thing finished by this weekend. It's my 6 month anniversary with my amazing girlfriend and i wanted it to be perfect, but i'm not even half moved in, i'm broke, an it's just..the last month has been filled with some pretty hellish experiences... perhaps there's a lesson somewhere in all this craziness.. whatever it is, i haven't found it. perhaps the funk was triggered by the phone call i received from the massage place i used to frequent in long beach. maybe i'll write about it someday.

not certain whether mulling over kitty pics is the best way to grieve the loss of my little one.. regardless, here i am again. thought i'd post some of her cutest pics... as a memorial of sorts.

my sweet tobi passed away july 31, 2005. still in shock. angry i couldn't save her...

what happened:amidst moving hell, tobi was so frightened by all the commotion, she threw herself from my 2nd story window. although we looked for a week, spending hours scouring the neighborhood, we couldn't find her.... no frightened meowing, no response, nothing. apparently she had hidden herself inside one of the parked cars below, and it had taken off within 10 minutes of her jump. i suppose since i found her at 5 weeks old hiding inside a car at an autobody shop, i should have checked there first.

to the sweetest little kitty i've ever met, thank you for making the last year so wonderful, thank you for all the memories. your sister shani and your new other mommy miss you very much as well. goodbye my little monchichi with the featherduster tail. can't believe you're really gone!