surreal

i suppose i shouldn't expect much from myself right now but i can't seem to do much other than stare into space...tried working on my house, but can't seem to do much other than lie about.. it is the cutest place ever, but since i went from a place with so much built-in storage to this huge empty loft, i have to buy a bunch of furniture to put all my "stuff" and it's daunting ... will post pics as soon s it's furnished and i unpack. I had this grand plan that i would get the whole thing finished by this weekend. It's my 6 month anniversary with my amazing girlfriend and i wanted it to be perfect, but i'm not even half moved in, i'm broke, an it's just..the last month has been filled with some pretty hellish experiences... perhaps there's a lesson somewhere in all this craziness.. whatever it is, i haven't found it. perhaps the funk was triggered by the phone call i received from the massage place i used to frequent in long beach. maybe i'll write about it someday.