well... i've never been diagnosed as such, and i was in therapy for around 6 years, so you'd think she would've mentioned something. regardless, i just moved and am trying to figure out how to make my stuff fit into my girlfriend's house so that it becomes our house, but i look around at the boxes and the haphazard furniture not yet situated and i feel completely overwhelmed. i'm about ready to throw out all my stuff and say screw it.
the girlfriend keeps cleaning little areas to make safe spaces void of clutter so when i start feeling overwhelmed i can go in there, see everything organized and feel calm again. there's just so much crap and nowhere to put any of it... well, actually there is space, but all the storage areas need to be reorganized to make room, and the task feels completely daunting. perhaps if i actually had enough time at home i could make sufficient headway. i knew this was going to take time, but in the meantime, i feel totally incapable of making any progress and just want to curl into a little ball and cry myself into a coma. if i could pay someone to come do this for me, i so would.
plus i feel guilty that i can't get more done, which i think just compounds the problem. i'm afraid i'm going to make us both crazy. hopefully i can pull myself out of this funk.
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You know how moving is always on those lists of the top ten things that stress people out. right up there with getting fired and losing a loved one? Well, I think the CHAOS is the reason, not the re-location!
I'm six weeks into my new place, and I'm about halfway back toward sanity (or, what passes for it in my life!).
Breathe, and re-boot, little sister!
jeni i just visited yours and tonis house and i think its beautiful. i love the stuff youve brought into the house:)
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